Aneshka's useless rants
A glimpse inside ...
Monday, June 27, 2005
Rumors a.k.a tsimis can be such a nasty thing. It can ruin trust and friendship. Be careful of what you are spreading, it might just haunt you.
When confronted, please have the decency to tell the truth and please don't give me petty excuses.
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Blame it on the hormones, I got over emotional in dealing with this. Hay! Sometimes anger corrodes my values and I become bitchy. Sumimasen. The "hinanakits" have been aired out and I hope this hullaballo ends.
When confronted, please have the decency to tell the truth and please don't give me petty excuses.
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Blame it on the hormones, I got over emotional in dealing with this. Hay! Sometimes anger corrodes my values and I become bitchy. Sumimasen. The "hinanakits" have been aired out and I hope this hullaballo ends.
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Sunday, June 26, 2005
I'm a dreamer but that is all I'm ever good at.
All the "what if's.." and "I'll be.." repeatedly plays in my head.
But I belatedly realize that all these will remain a distant dream if I don't take action. Afterall, there is no gain if you don't go through all the pain.
So, I am "psyching" myself, to move my butt. Afterall, the first step is always the hardest.
First thing on the list is to unsubscribe from 2 mailing lists. These mailing list, averages from 100 to 200 emails a day. It does keep me company when I'm bored but it disrupts my train of thoughts, it diverts my attention and compels me to do non-work related activities i.e surfing the net.
Second, is to buy my own PC so I can finally put all those theories that I've read to practice.
note to self: "YOU CAN DO IT!!!"
All the "what if's.." and "I'll be.." repeatedly plays in my head.
But I belatedly realize that all these will remain a distant dream if I don't take action. Afterall, there is no gain if you don't go through all the pain.
So, I am "psyching" myself, to move my butt. Afterall, the first step is always the hardest.
First thing on the list is to unsubscribe from 2 mailing lists. These mailing list, averages from 100 to 200 emails a day. It does keep me company when I'm bored but it disrupts my train of thoughts, it diverts my attention and compels me to do non-work related activities i.e surfing the net.
Second, is to buy my own PC so I can finally put all those theories that I've read to practice.
note to self: "YOU CAN DO IT!!!"
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Friday, June 24, 2005

Just this morning, I felt the urge to... you know relieve myself (kalibangon in bisaya).
So ala article ni. Obvious ba na wala akong ginagawa hehehe.
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Ever had the urge to relieve yourself during office hours? I, for one would definitely hate doing this but if nature really calls then here are some steps to do the dreaded thing.
1. Pretend that you are going somewhere far i.e. like going to the farthest copier or going to the pantry to wash your mug.
2. Make sure that only a few know the existence of the toilet you’ll be using. The best places are usually those farthest away from your office or cubicle; at least you don’t know or are not close to the people there.
3. Go to the farthest toilet cubicle.
4. Make sure that the cubicle has a lot of tissue or you brought tissue with you. To be sure, just bring your mug. I still think that water is the best “dirt” cleaner.
5. If you brought a mug, fill it up with water
6. Sit down and do your thing.
7. If someone suddenly enters, smell the odor emanating from the bowl. Flush if the smell is quite obvious.
8. Continue doing the deed.
9. Wait until the c.r. is empty
10. If it’s not possible and you are using “the mug”, wait for the person to use the drier then wash your ass. Of course, using the tissue would be easier as you are worry-free about the sound of the water hitting the bowl.
11. Flush not once but thrice.
12. If you have perfume, spray a little.
13. Get out of the cube and pretend that nothing happened.
14. Wash your hands
15. and then go back to your work place.
16. If someone looks at you suspiciously, pretend that you did not see him or her.
17. Don’t forget to bring notes from the make-believe meeting or copies from the copier.
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
Buang man ni akong bana...
Here are snippets of our conversation (email):
Yiek: http://www.deals2buy.com/delldeals.htm
Me : what are you implying??? dili hehehe
Yiek : Heheheheh, wa baya ko ga check sa plantsa
Me: samok di ba ingon ko icheck...kay not sure ko akong nahulbot... na sunog na to atong unit ron
Yiek: Limot ko check. Samoka ngano man pod di gyud na nimo hulboton oi
Me: usahay molupad man sa akong huna-huna.... wa diay ka namalantsa? mau bitawg ning text ko nimo para ma check nako... grrr!
Yiek: Amew, wa nako namalntsa.. kay pag check nako sa akong bear email, patawgon man daw ko sa US.
Me: ay hahay! unta nahulbot to nako...
try as I might, paling2 dyud akong utok.. usahay wa nako kabalo sa akong gipangbuhat...
Nagdala ko ug tasa ganina para kuha tubig, cge ra ko lakaw wa ko kabalo nga padulong na diay ko sa c.r.
murag naa ko ko adhd... pa check up kaha ko no?
Yiek:Cge, kuyogan tika
Me:Samok! Grrr!
Yiek:Pa schedule ta sa doctor… naa mo company doctor puede ana?
Grrr! Ning tawag sya after ning ingon ko nga "nainsulto ko". Weird man ni siya ug "sense of humor" pero lingaw ra man gihapon. Mau cguro ning na inlab ko niya kay wa diri wa didto ang iyang humor.
He can also be such a pain in the ass. He finds things that I really hate and pesters me.
Samples sa iyang pagka-"pesky" (hastang proud dyud kau siya ani nga gitawag nako siya nga pesky kay mau kuno naka inlab nako niya) :
1. kabalo man siya nga di ko ganahan makasimhot sa iyang ilok, iya dyud ko pugson ug pasimhot, grabe na na among wrestling kada gabii para molikay ko. Usahay mga bun-og na lang gud mi ug ni-wrestling.
2. Kabalo siya nga gil-kanon ko sa ..sekwet.., hala mangitik dayon. Karambola na pud mi. Kaluuy dyud nako mabun-og ko pirmi kay syempre mas kusgan man siya nako.
3. kani akong bana mahilig ug duwa2 sa iyang ilong, miski wala guy kugmo. Dili man daw siya kahangos klaro kay naa dust particles. Ako siya buyagon. Na pahiran man noon ko sa iyang kamot. Karambola na pud!
4. Arte dyud ko kay di ko ganahan akong legs, nawong ug lubot mahikapan sa tiil. Ay syempre kay di man ko ganahan iyang buhataon. Pastilan!
Nalibog ko kung malingaw ba ko or dapat maglagot ko. Hahay! ning banaha oi.
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005

It seems that my new nickname is coming true. I used to be a very docile and amicable gal BUT through the years I've become such a bitch. Hahay!
Yiek does not even want me to talk to customer service for fear of me hurling offensive words. I don't use those Put*nf i** words but I do use f**k when I'm really pissed off. Pero mabait pa rin ako kasi I only use this when I'm angry with myself hehehe.
I say what's on my mind and I can be very offensive when pissed off. Hay! What the heck have I become?
Sample of my bitchiness:
Comversation 1:
We wanted to discountinue our cable connection but the darn aparment adminstration made it SOP.
Me: (dala yung tenant's contract) Nandito sa contract o na pwede naming ipa-cut yung cable.
Admin: (After calling her superior) sa bagong contract namin SOP na ho yung cable.
Me: (In my head: What the fuck?) Eh... luma pa tong contract namin eh.
Admin: Pero mag-e-end din naman yan di ba, tapos papa-reconnect pa rin yung cable kasi part na yun sa contract
Me: (Pissed off) miski ayaw namin? kailangan bayaran ?
Admin: nods her head
Me: Miss, bakit ba yung mga admin dito mga mukhang pera??? (frowning).. ano ba naman yan!!!
Conversation 2:
Our company is scheduling a nihonggo class. 8-10AM yung schedule.
SV: a-attend ka ba?
Me: Ayoko kasi ang aga. (10am ako usually pumapasok)
Sv: twice a week lang naman eh
Me: HIndi ako ever naka pasok dito ng 8:00, so di talaga ako mag-a-attend.
Me: Di ko talaga gusto yung nihonggo
Conversation 3:
I received a memo or "loveletter" from HR, indicating that I have verbal warning for my lates last MAY.
SV: Bakit hindi mo nalang i-leave as half day kung alam mo nang more than 3 na yung lates mo.
Me: Sayang kasi pera at leaves ko.
Sv: Forever na yan nasa 201 mo. Kung sakaling lilipat ka, nandyan pa rin yan
Me: Bakit? Pag magtra-transfer ba ako, hindi nila ako tatangapin dahil sa aking mga lates? Di naman yan nagmamatter ah! (voice indicating that I'm pissed off)
..at marami pa yan. Help! ngano maldita naman kau ko. everyday nalang diay ko dug-on? hehehe
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Monday, June 20, 2005
I'm getting dizzy with all this money-talk. I find myself surfing the net, comparing Pag-ibig and bank loans. This is after all a very big investment, and we have to take into account all angles. Good thing, I have my own financial consultant, my Mom. Her head is probably spinning from the barrage of questions I've fired at her hehehe.
We fear taking this big step but then life would be such a bore without taking risks.
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Re: Moving in with friends. We are still open for this option, there are afterall ways of attaining privacy, i.e. we have the 2nd flr. to ourselves? We will see .....
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I'm really thankful in having a husband and partner who isn't afraid to take risks,whose who is open to change, who assured me that someday we will achieve our dreams. Dar, I'm really lucky to have you.
We fear taking this big step but then life would be such a bore without taking risks.
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Re: Moving in with friends. We are still open for this option, there are afterall ways of attaining privacy, i.e. we have the 2nd flr. to ourselves? We will see .....
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I'm really thankful in having a husband and partner who isn't afraid to take risks,
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
Yesterday was spent joy riding in ortigas-cainta rizal-pasig area. It was soo humid, the heat was unbearable but it was nonetheless educating and fun.

We went here ------>

<---------- and here.
We've been thinking of buying our own place. We'd rather have our rent go to something we can own than be lost in the hands of our money-hungry building owner. For the whole morning and afternoon our heads were spinning and suffered information overload from thinking of payments terms, interest, loans, land value, yearly payment and monthly dues. We got cross-eyed after calculating the total amount that we will be paying but we've decided to take an investment risk. So say hello soon(hopefully in 2007) to our new condo. Of course there would be some sacrifices, less dinner out (gotta force myself to cook), I have to close my eyes during mall sales, less "a la carte" coffees, things I can very much will myself to do. So good luck to me na lang.
To save more, we've also thought of renting a 3-bedroom house with georgia, vincent and mau BUT we have to give up our privacy. No more strolling in knickers, we'd have to wear something decent when we are out of the room and we'd have to say goodbye to our refreshing nightly half bath. We've thought these over and figured that privacy is something we can't sacrifice. If we are pulling out our hair thinking of were to get the needed finances then maybe that's the time we will reconsider moving in with friends.
Gosh! enough adult talk. It's giving me a headache, I want to go back to being a silly and flighty highschool girl again! pronto! Although, I still sometimes succumb to being silly and flighty once in a while hehehe.

We went here ------>

<---------- and here.
We've been thinking of buying our own place. We'd rather have our rent go to something we can own than be lost in the hands of our money-hungry building owner. For the whole morning and afternoon our heads were spinning and suffered information overload from thinking of payments terms, interest, loans, land value, yearly payment and monthly dues. We got cross-eyed after calculating the total amount that we will be paying but we've decided to take an investment risk. So say hello soon(hopefully in 2007) to our new condo. Of course there would be some sacrifices, less dinner out (gotta force myself to cook), I have to close my eyes during mall sales, less "a la carte" coffees, things I can very much will myself to do. So good luck to me na lang.
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Monday, June 06, 2005

I might be paranoid or praning on this.
Yesterday I had brownish spotting the quantity amounting to 1/4 teaspoon. I'm having light spotting right now and my period isn't due for a week yet! I read an article last friday regarding brownish spots as one sign of pregnancy. I was praning, so I reserched for it in the net. Fuck! I'm not ready yet! We will see, 2 weeks from now. Hopefully, it will be negative.
I don't want to entertain these thoughts because we are not yet ready to be called mom or dad.
I'm not ready because...
1.) no matter how much I look at it WE are not financially ready.
2.) I don't want to be tied up to this blasted company. This would surely be a hindrance. What about my dream of looking for another job?
3.) weekend gimiks and out of town travels would be a thing of the past
4.) I couldn't imagine myself caring for another human being. Change diapers? Pumping at work? Nooooo! Nightmare!
5.) I'm such a klutz. I always forget where I placed my things. Could it be that I'd also misplace my baby?
5.) our dreams of going overseas would take a back seat.
6.) I'm still too young. Based on my timeplan, I'm only allowed to get pregnant when I reach 30.
Oh! Let this be just a nightmare. I'm not yet ready end of discussion.
I don't want to entertain these thoughts because we are not yet ready to be called mom or dad.
I'm not ready because...
1.) no matter how much I look at it WE are not financially ready.
2.) I don't want to be tied up to this blasted company. This would surely be a hindrance. What about my dream of looking for another job?
3.) weekend gimiks and out of town travels would be a thing of the past
4.) I couldn't imagine myself caring for another human being. Change diapers? Pumping at work? Nooooo! Nightmare!
5.) I'm such a klutz. I always forget where I placed my things. Could it be that I'd also misplace my baby?
5.) our dreams of going overseas would take a back seat.
6.) I'm still too young. Based on my timeplan, I'm only allowed to get pregnant when I reach 30.
Oh! Let this be just a nightmare. I'm not yet ready end of discussion.
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Sunday, June 05, 2005
I vow to document every trivial and silly moments of my life from now on. Why? So I can have something I can look back to. With the rate I'm going now, I pretty sure, I'm going to have alzheimer's disease as I grow older.
I usually love fridays because it would mean having another weekend to sleep and laze around. But that friday, I was desperate for something, desperate enough to send an email to my barkada VPAL-em and ask for advice. I was probably senseless at that time.
I was not in the mood for a night cap so I immediately went home. I also was not in the mood to cook anything as I am bored with the limited dishes that I know so I suggested for Yiek and I to eat out.
Since I was too lazy to dress up and go for a gimik, Ria, Georgia and Vincent went to our small apartment, bringing mud slide. Our house was mess (I am really such a slob) so I (Yiek was busy with his sideline or so he says) went into a cleaning frenzy. We watched Bridget Jones on dvd and talked about career and love as usual.
We woke up at around 10:00 Am and watched Lost until my butt got numb. I was too lazy to cook so I suggested to dine at Shakey's but it was raining soo hard. I had no choice but to cook =(.
This day was a day for many "palpak" cooking. I tried cooking pancakes but it was just blah, the hotcake mix said just add milk but it tasted like sawdust and it could really use a bit of sugar. As our eggs were expiring, I tried (tried being the operative word) cooking leche plan but beat the mixture too much or I overcooked it? Ihe result, it did not bake well and would become "bungkag"(don't know the english term nor the tagalog for this) when I try scooping it out
I slept at 1:00 AM while Yiek was watching star wars eps. 4. We woke up at 12:00 noon, we were so hungry and I was having a shakeys hang over so we decided to dine out. Our blasted monitor went beserk and would not turn on so we didn't have a choice but to return it. Damn! we should have bought a new one but the pesky husband wanted a 19" monitor so we settled for a refurbished one. We went to gilmore and had our monitor replaced, since we were there na I decided that we buy another hard disk. ka ching! Money down the drain again. I would have preferred to pay in cash as it would save us Php400 but we really couldn't afford one so card it is.
When we went home, viola the replacement monitor wouldn't turn on. Wah! We spent almost 200 for the back and forth taxi but still our effort was a waste. Damn second hand monitors! Why are we so unlucky with our appliances? First the t.v., the dvd player then the monitor.
Yiek then had his hair cut and we went to church. The gospel reading I can't recall, the homily I also can't recall. Sometimes, I'm really of guilty of going to church just for the sake of going. During the mass, my mind wanders into neverland.
We went to do our grocery shopping, got carried away picking just about anything and got shocked when it was totalled. Sometimes, I can be such an irresponsible shopper. I buy just for the heck of it and throw it away because a)it had gotten molds in them b) it has expired c) its useless
Yiek have been having a cough for more than 3 weeks now so I texted my Tita to recommend some medicines. Oh wow! antibiotic for 250+ per tab. Mahal ang magkasakit. Having a cough these days is the "in" thing as all are out of stock in Mercury and Watsons. I've also noticed that Mercury is really really expensive as compared to other drug stores. The antiobiotic in watsons cost 204/tab while it's 252.50 in Mercury. 50 pesos difference is no joke! I am now a converted watson's fanatic.
So there goes my boring weekend, I didn't get to clean the house. Hopefully when my mother comes here on my birthday she will arrange our topsy-turvy abode hehehe.
I usually love fridays because it would mean having another weekend to sleep and laze around. But that friday, I was desperate for something, desperate enough to send an email to my barkada VPAL-em and ask for advice. I was probably senseless at that time.
I was not in the mood for a night cap so I immediately went home. I also was not in the mood to cook anything as I am bored with the limited dishes that I know so I suggested for Yiek and I to eat out.
Since I was too lazy to dress up and go for a gimik, Ria, Georgia and Vincent went to our small apartment, bringing mud slide. Our house was mess (I am really such a slob) so I (Yiek was busy with his sideline or so he says) went into a cleaning frenzy. We watched Bridget Jones on dvd and talked about career and love as usual.
We woke up at around 10:00 Am and watched Lost until my butt got numb. I was too lazy to cook so I suggested to dine at Shakey's but it was raining soo hard. I had no choice but to cook =(.
This day was a day for many "palpak" cooking. I tried cooking pancakes but it was just blah, the hotcake mix said just add milk but it tasted like sawdust and it could really use a bit of sugar. As our eggs were expiring, I tried (tried being the operative word) cooking leche plan but beat the mixture too much or I overcooked it? Ihe result, it did not bake well and would become "bungkag"(don't know the english term nor the tagalog for this) when I try scooping it out
I slept at 1:00 AM while Yiek was watching star wars eps. 4. We woke up at 12:00 noon, we were so hungry and I was having a shakeys hang over so we decided to dine out. Our blasted monitor went beserk and would not turn on so we didn't have a choice but to return it. Damn! we should have bought a new one but the pesky husband wanted a 19" monitor so we settled for a refurbished one. We went to gilmore and had our monitor replaced, since we were there na I decided that we buy another hard disk. ka ching! Money down the drain again. I would have preferred to pay in cash as it would save us Php400 but we really couldn't afford one so card it is.
When we went home, viola the replacement monitor wouldn't turn on. Wah! We spent almost 200 for the back and forth taxi but still our effort was a waste. Damn second hand monitors! Why are we so unlucky with our appliances? First the t.v., the dvd player then the monitor.
Yiek then had his hair cut and we went to church. The gospel reading I can't recall, the homily I also can't recall. Sometimes, I'm really of guilty of going to church just for the sake of going. During the mass, my mind wanders into neverland.
We went to do our grocery shopping, got carried away picking just about anything and got shocked when it was totalled. Sometimes, I can be such an irresponsible shopper. I buy just for the heck of it and throw it away because a)it had gotten molds in them b) it has expired c) its useless
Yiek have been having a cough for more than 3 weeks now so I texted my Tita to recommend some medicines. Oh wow! antibiotic for 250+ per tab. Mahal ang magkasakit. Having a cough these days is the "in" thing as all are out of stock in Mercury and Watsons. I've also noticed that Mercury is really really expensive as compared to other drug stores. The antiobiotic in watsons cost 204/tab while it's 252.50 in Mercury. 50 pesos difference is no joke! I am now a converted watson's fanatic.
So there goes my boring weekend, I didn't get to clean the house. Hopefully when my mother comes here on my birthday she will arrange our topsy-turvy abode hehehe.
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
I realized I was a bitch in posting the saga post hence I'm deleting it.
You stood beside me. Your clothing shabby, your skin aged with years. With shaking hands, you slowly searched your pockets in hopes of finding just a single centavo, praying that it would be enough to buy the medicines you badly need.
I tried pretending that I didn't notice, I tried to stop myself from staring. On my way out, I looked at you one last time and tried to brush off the gnawing feeling.
On my way home, I tried looking for you. I feel selfish for spending 75 pesos on coffee. I regretted not helping you, I know should have.
I tried pretending that I didn't notice, I tried to stop myself from staring. On my way out, I looked at you one last time and tried to brush off the gnawing feeling.
On my way home, I tried looking for you. I feel selfish for spending 75 pesos on coffee. I regretted not helping you, I know should have.
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
The night to me seemed ordinary,
just like any other night,
you were always beside me
Little did I know that this night
would be the culmination of what's to come
You see on that ordinary night I lost you
However much, I tried gaining you back
You seem to be afar..
Your stares oh so beguiling
I can feel you taunting me,
tempting me.
One day, I promised to myself,
I will regain you back
Sadly, the clock ticked,
the seconds became minutes,
minutes became days,
days became years
Time can be cruel and
hopes of gaining you back
became a blur
Stop taunting me...stop teasing me...
I can only take soo much.
just like any other night,
you were always beside me
Little did I know that this night
would be the culmination of what's to come
You see on that ordinary night I lost you
However much, I tried gaining you back
You seem to be afar..
Your stares oh so beguiling
I can feel you taunting me,
tempting me.
One day, I promised to myself,
I will regain you back
Sadly, the clock ticked,
the seconds became minutes,
minutes became days,
days became years
Time can be cruel and
hopes of gaining you back
became a blur
Stop taunting me...stop teasing me...
I can only take soo much.
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